something i must live with

She felt terrible. Trading away everything for a woman who might even just be killed if Chimera felt like it left her feeling sick over her decision but as soon as Dalila pulled her to her chest all of it disappeared. The warring emotions were still there but she felt the warmth of Dalila, her comfort and her support as she held her, joining in the same emotions. She tried to hide in Dalila’s embrace as she shifted slightly to surround her, protecting her from all that could get her outside. Siren clung to her, safe from anything that threatened them. Chimera was off and appeased, she had Dalila right here with her. The dappled woman held her tight and for just a moment she could forget the guilt they were facing. Siren didn’t see them having another option, she couldn’t see Dalila used by her brother like that. Not when she meant so much to her…

Siren tried not to acknowledge the thought or her deeper feelings, if there was anything that Chimera would be disappointed in it was how much she loved Dalila. A tool, a possession, purchased with a few pelts. But to Siren she had become so much more than that. She was her constant companion, she took care of her needs that Chimera didn’t have the time for, she saw to the intimate details of her life. Dalila shared her bed. There wasn’t anyone closer to her or her heart. How could she not love her?

Siren’s throat tightened even as Dalila asked forgiveness. ”No. It’s not your fault.” She tried to tell her as she spoke into the woman’s soft fur. ”You never even asked for this.” Siren squeezed tighter, holding onto Dalila desperately as she tried to focus on their accomplishment. She tried to smile, but it was a difficult expression even as she held tightly to Dalila.

”But now you’re mine.” She finally whispered quietly, savoring the way the words fell from her lips. She looked up to Dalila as she dried the tears on her cheeks and powdery blue met Siren’s dual toned gaze. Siren’s lips pulled back into the hint of a smile then as she felt her chest warm as the forbidden feeling of love filled her to her toes. She didn’t know what their future held in store but she knew that whatever was bubbling up inside was dangerous. Dalila was special to her beyond words, she gave most of her possessions in life to prove that, so why did her heart still hurt so much?

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