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Ulric knew her better than anyone, he’d been there since day one learning how to raise a sickly daughter that didn’t enjoy being coddled or snuggled despite her difficult illness. So far Ulric was also the only one who could get away with showing his affection with any kind of regularity. Lilith had always been like that though, maybe that was another reason she mourned the loss of her mother so hard. As a child she never really allowed her to cuddle her or give kisses. She missed out on much of her mother’s love and in the end felt regret about not taking the opportunity while she was allowed it. The thought would make her heart ache as she watched Ulric go, but she was swiftly swept into other thoughts as she returned Roman’s grin and watched with garnet eyes as he made his way into the cot beside her.

Roman was almost too big for the cot he had been given and she realized they wouldn’t even be able to share a cot if they had wanted to. He was spilling over the edge even as she was yawning and physically showing her exhaustion. She blinked back her tired eyes, but didn’t miss the way his silver gaze lingered on her features. Like he was trying to decipher what lay beneath the surface. Lil felt another little blush washed over her cheeks as nose as she lowered her features to her pretty paws. She wanted to keep her head up and talk to him but they were both aware of how sleep beckoned her. As Romulus made obvious as he spoke. Lillith yawned again in answer, obviously not going to argue his point.

Honestly despite how tired she was Lillith felt more carefree than she had in a very long time. She’d very nearly died but there was a lightness in her chest and an almost playful feeling dancing within. ”I am tired.” She agreed with him quietly even as her silvery tail wagged slightly at her hips. Jaws opened wide in another yawn and she blinked her eyes closed. ”Good night, Romulus.” She told him with one more sleepy glance. ”I’m glad I met you today.” Lil grinned up at him and then her eyes were shut once more. Her breathing evened and sleep took her within moments.

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With the lovely day she had Lillith should have slept peacefully and through the night. Almost all was right in her world and at first she began dreaming about her happy family. Smiles, laughs, uncharacteristic cuddles all around as she was transformed to the puppy she had once been when her family was complete. The dream went on, and suddenly shifted from bright, sunny, and full of love to sudden darkness. A dreary green light filtered over the features of those she loved and one by one their faces disappeared into darkness. Her mother and sister first, nearly at the same time, then one by one her siblings until she was just looking at Ulic. His features went gray and then he too disappeared into darkness.

While she was still sleeping, going through the terrifying scenes she was whimpering and whining through silver lips. Her toes and eyelids twitched. When Ulric disappeared she cried softly, stuck in her nightmare of a dream. Alone in the darkness abandoned by those she loved most.

Lillith Adravendi