Break my heart

There was no solace experiencing a loss like this, and they clung to each other as their minds searched for a reason why. Why was this happening to them? Iroh wouldn’t accept that Elise was at fault, she didn’t want this. Neither of them did. Iroh internalized his own searched, cursing the god he followed throughout his life. How could this be allowed to happen? In what kind of world could their children be taken before they were even born? Elise spoke those words of love to him in return, but there was no consolation. They were experiencing the worst loss of their lives, and there was nothing to relieve the pain. All they could do was hold onto one another like they always had.

Iroh was so happy the moment he realized they were pregnant, but now he wished that it had never happened at all. The disappointment and grief it was causing them was almost too much for the man. He couldn’t begin to understand what Elise was going through, having to endure her own body rejecting the babies they very much wanted. He just had to be thankful that the news hadn’t been shared yet. Maybe someone had guess at this point but at the very least he wouldn’t have to tell anyone what they were suffering through. None of them deserved that added burden.

The man lingered in his helplessness, unable to do anything but hold Elise and try to convince her everything would be alright. Someday. They could keep trying, hopefully this was just a terrible one off. He hated that they were going through this, despised it having to happen to his beloved mate, but they were still alive. They were still here and they could keep fighting for the family they both very much desired. He caressed the back of her held and held her back as he held her to his chest. She was quiet for a long time, but it didn’t matter to Iroh. He would sit here and hold her for eternity if that was what she desired from him. Eventually she spoke, and he wasn’t expecting to hear what she said.

Elise didn’t want to be here anymore, she didn’t want to call this cavern home any longer. She didn’t feel like she fit, and as she spoke he couldn’t help but wonder how long she had been holding this in. Or if it was the heightened emotion speaking. Elise knew his commitment to his family but as she spoke he wondered if his family was as committed to him. He’d always been kind of alone in the world. He’d clung to Pyrrhic because he was more of a brother than his own flesh.

”Elise,” he started softly as she stared into his blue and lavender eyes. He didn’t know what to say. ”I’d do anything to make you happy.” He offered quietly, including leaving the pack he was born in, all for her happiness. She proved time and time again she was the only wolf that he could count on, and she deserved the world. Iroh would do whatever he could to provide that for her.

Iroh Abraxas