the distance from me to where you'd be

Indigo · 07-23-2021, 04:05 AM

If you wanted them then you would be happy. He averted his gaze, guilty about his trepidation. He wasn’t ready, this was not the right time and he struggled with his words with Duchess, but he’d never admit to himself that he did not want these babies. He’d figure something out, he always did, but right now he was struggling and what he needed and wanted the most was his sister to comfort and guide him like she always had. He’d always looked to her for guidance, she helped suggest he move to the Hallows she had helped suggest he find his mask, and he’d followed that guidance as best he could. He made his own path, and now…

Soft sapphire eyes lifted to Aslatiel as she spoke again, vitriol on her lips as she told him exactly how she felt. There was no cushioning and she gave it to him raw and fiery. Just like she had always been, but Indigo never thought he would ever be on the receiving end of her rage. He could barely accept what she said. She hated his band, hated his children and as she went on revealed that she hated him as well.

"I love you so much, Indigo... but I also hate you."

Indigo’s whole world stopped in that moment. Aslatiel pulled his heart into the open, out of her safe grasp and into the light of day. He watched as she meticulously butchered the organ he had been certain was secure and guarded given to the one that he loved. The one he wasn’t allowed to love and the only one that could hurt him like she was doing right now. He was thankful for the feeling of numbness that had taken him earlier because he would have broken completely if he allowed himself to feel the true bite of her sword.

Suddenly he couldn’t breath, he wanted to cry out and scream and protest what he saw, but she was the executioner and with one swift blow his heart was destroyed. She hated him and everything he had built for himself. "Aslatiel..." Her voice quieted, she paused and looked up at him, rage and sorrow burning in her endless galactic gaze as she put in the final nail. Stay away, stay the fuck away. Without another word she turned away from him and ran.

"Please, don’t… Please no." Tears streamed down his eyes, she was long gone but he pushed himself to his paws. He couldn’t take this, it couldn’t be real. The pain that began to blossom in his chest was far too real. It hurt too much. He started to run after her, eyes filled with exhausted tears as he tried to push himself. He needed Aslatiel, he couldn’t go on without her. I hate you. Her words repeated in his head as he ran after her. He knew he wouldn’t catch her but he had to do something. Onwards he went, pushing through the foliage, his massive form moved slowly through the forest but he pushed onward until he couldn’t anymore.

The sun was high in the sky as his limbs gave out, he’d been trying to catch Aslatiel but also run from the pain that swiftly caught him. He cried out and fell to the leaf littered ground. He thought he was broken before, but nothing compared to this. He lost her, she was gone. He was weak and couldn’t lift himself despite everything his body was telling him to keep going, to do something. He had responsibilities to return to, he had a life to sustain, but he couldn’t do anything but curl up in those woods and let the sorrow and grief wash over him, it took him over, it drowned him.

"Asla" -- "Indy"

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