you're the satellite

Lilith didn’t feel like she was as capable as those around her, not because she hadn’t been able to perform but because it took so much more of her effort than other wolves. Her brother, Romulus, Artorias… they were all so much more capable. Her illness left its lasting marks, she knew better than anyone how hard it was just to get out of bed some days. Her determination and her family’s love and support were the factors that drove her on to try and be better than what she was left with. She almost lost her life, and she’d paid a great price to continue on.

Roman spoke up again, he had seen her and he went n to highlight again the accomplishments she achieved. Lil took a breath to answer him when he asked what she had seen in turn, but took the words from her mouth, kind of. She was weak, he didn’t realize that she barely made it through that fight. She did what she had to, and here they were in the infirmary now. He explained her hardship away, and even if she knew that wasn’t the correct way to think of it she wanted to believe him. She wanted to believe him that she could be normal. She wanted to believe that Gwynevere was wrong. Deep down she knew she would always struggle, but the young naive part of her truly wanted what he said to be factual.

She focused on his words and felt empowered, not only in his confidence in her but the collective use of the word we. ”We just need to get you into the world more.” She grinned, but wasn’t certain he could see her expression in the darkness. ”No, not too hard to fix.” She agreed with him, though Gwyn had said the exact opposite. She hadn’t been lying when she said it felt like she could do anything with him. Including overcoming the effects of her illness.

She trailed her claws through the fur on his chest as she retrieved her paw from his chest. A soft sigh fell from her lips, feeling tired again now that her nightmare was long forgotten. His gentle touch soothed her and his subtle promise encouraged her. They just met, but already Lillith felt like she had a lasting friend in him. One to encourage and grow with her as she worked towards beating the ailments of her childhood.

Lillith Adravendi