All Our Problems

Duchess · 07-25-2021, 01:08 PM

It did hurt her as he told her his trust was lost in her. She really, deep down couldn’t blame him. But she didn’t want him to feel that way. She didn’t want him to know at all about what wasn’t an accident, but it wasn’t even that hard to pull together the different pieces to see what she had done. And somehow she thought she could get away with it. Thinking that his mind may have already been made up, that they couldn't go back to the way the used to be, it was breaking her as much as he was broken.

He had told her that her being dead wouldn't have fixed the problems. She didn't believe him. Her own judgement and thoughts clouded how she believed other's felt about her, regardless of what they said or really felt. And she was really hurting her own self esteem through her thoughts and feelings. It was to no fault of the others, especially in the band.

Duchess didn't weigh him down when he went to get up, she floated off of him gently, there wasn't any harshness or aggression in the movement. She wanted to cling to him to though, and she felt like at least on her end that they couldn't be separated in this moment because of the way she leaned into him. She wanted his affection so badly, more than she had ever. She didn't want to believe he had been so shut down that affection of her wouldn't help, or that he didn't want the affection at all.

She stood and took steps forward after him eagerly, "Please-" She cut off as her voice became a little loud and nearly shrieked, looking around hoping she hadn't disturbed any of the wolves around her. Her ears were laid back gently to her head while she felt that disappointment in herself and feeling guilty for making him this way. But she was needy too, her voice went towards a whisper when she spoke out next, "Please Indigo, I need you."

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