Ghost Behind My Eyes

Hanako · 07-26-2021, 05:03 PM

Hanako inhaled, a little frustrated that he could see through her facade. Looking back she knew she'd always put on an act for him, dancing to the beat of his drum just so he'd keep her close and treat her right. She was a convincing actress, up there with the best, but he knew her too well by now. The few moments where she'd dropped the mask were enough for him to see the real her, jealous and self-centred. Perhaps even a bit lonely. He was treating her softly-softly, his movements slow as though he feared she'd spook at any moment. Such consideration wasn't at all like the Azure she'd last come across, all venomous words and spiteful stares. She believed him when he said he was sorry, he didn't seem like the sort who'd lie like this to cover his tracks, but that didn't make this situation any easier to deal with. Even when he was being outlandishly sweet, understanding.

He stepped in closer and she allowed him, felt very little desire to pull away as he nosed at her gently. Not demanding or pressing, more like a man simply seeking comfort. The sand beneath her pale paw pads felt rough and grainy, an apt contrast of the roughness of his muzzle against hers. What he said might have been true, who knows how their lives may have unfolded if that day had ended differently. Would they both be happier? Would the Armada dodged the heartache inflicted by his and Zee's absence? Who knows.

She closed her eyes with a sigh, for once wishing everything was simple. A quick and easy a to b storyline, where the conflict was resolved without too much strife or fuss. And yet she felt herself being pulled in two directions, the past clung onto her, holding on tight as Azure reminded her of what could have been. Whilst Sparrow and her pirate band represented the future, gleaming promises of treasure and adventure. Something new and shiny to distract her from the old monotony of the Armada.

"Maybe." Which was to pretty much say yes. It was bad of her but she felt a petty sense of smugness knowing that she was the right choice. "A lot has changed since. I've changed." She wasn't the best at introspection but even she knew that. It was as clear as day. "I don't know what I want."

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