oh making bad decisions

If Siren had agreed to wipe away the problem, to prevent the pups she was likely carrying, then perhaps Dalila could have tried to forgive and forget. She could understand a mistake or maybe even accept that it really was against her will after all and now they needed to heal the after affects of that attack. But when the first words out of Siren's mouth weren't agreement to rid herself of her possible pregnancy Dalila felt the last little bit of her hope shatter. Calling this man a river god still made no sense to her. It just made her wonder if perhaps the saltwater had gotten to Siren's head and she was imagining things. Either way, it sounded like this was at least someone she had met before and when he had called for her she had gone. That was the truth of it. She had willingly gone to this man despite the safety and love she had here and now she would carry his pups that she refused to prevent. I couldn't refuse. She gave that as her excuse again and it just hurt Dalila more because she absolutely could have. Even if the result would have been the same the connotation would have been completely different. At least then she could sympathize with this woman she loved so dearly instead of feeling slighted and betrayed.

But Dalila didn't say anything. She just looked at the ground in front of her for a long moment as she contemplated what she should do or what she could do. The love and relationship she thought they had made her feel like a fool. It had been bad enough that she had to swallow her pride whenever she was with Chimera, but she had forced herself to justify it because Chimera had come long before her and she knew that asking Siren to pick her over Chimera was an impossible task. But this... this hurt her to her very core and reminded her that even if they loved one another and even if Siren had gone to such lengths to buy her away from Chimera she was still her slave. That hadn't changed and she was foolish to think it had.

Dalila didn't feel disgusted by what Siren had done or even angry. She was heartbroken and sad, shaken back to the reality of what they were. If this was what Siren wanted then so be it. She rose to her paws again, still staring at the floor as her posture naturally shifted back to the submissive, withdrawn stance she had once held when she was first purchased, biting back the emotions and tears that threatened to overwhelm her. "Please finish your herbs and water and get some rest, my lady. I'll be back this evening to prepare your dinner and help you bathe." She turned to walk out of the den, attempting to hurry away before the quiet demeanor the placed protectively over herself could crack. She didn't know what she was going to do or where she was going to go, but she just knew she needed to get away and clear her head that was still spinning.

"Dalila"