Transparent Soul
Hika
Bulwark
Bard
08-23-2021, 02:48 PM
She nodded in agreement as Hikaru mentioned how Mortis hesitated far too much these days. It made her a little sad at times to see him this way. There was a large chunk of her life that he wasn't around for, but she didn't remember him being so overly cautious about things back when she was younger. Of course she still didn't really know what had driven him away for that period of time or even what was going through his head half of the time, but of course she loved her brother so she just wanted to see him happy. Sometimes it felt like the pressure their father put on them was doing more harm than good - a feeling she knew all too well.
She refocused on Hikaru as he began to scrub off the dirt caught in his fur, chuckling softly at the questions he gave her about how she was alike or how she differed from her father. "It would probably be easier to list the ways I'm the same rather than the ways I'm different from him if I'm being honest," she said with a slightly sad grin. "Which is so strange since I wanted to be just like him so badly when I was little, but now that I'm older and have more context on things I just... I don't think he and I really see eye to eye on things much." She didn't want to feel more at home among The Hallows and Artorias' family than her own, but that was how it felt at times. She still respected and loved her father simply because he was her father, but the days when she had worshiped the ground he walked on were gone.
"Some things are easy to agree with... Like protecting the ones we care about or working hard to better the pack and things like that... But he's just so..." She struggled to find the right words for a moment, her ears flicking uncertainly. "He can be hypocritical and smothering," she finally landed on with a small shrug. Sometimes she didn't really catch how mature her words or perspectives were. She had been forced to grow up fast and even now that things had calmed some she still felt much older than she actually was. Sometimes it felt as if she was actually the adult and her father was somehow younger than her - at least in how he acted.
"Briar Fatalis"
She refocused on Hikaru as he began to scrub off the dirt caught in his fur, chuckling softly at the questions he gave her about how she was alike or how she differed from her father. "It would probably be easier to list the ways I'm the same rather than the ways I'm different from him if I'm being honest," she said with a slightly sad grin. "Which is so strange since I wanted to be just like him so badly when I was little, but now that I'm older and have more context on things I just... I don't think he and I really see eye to eye on things much." She didn't want to feel more at home among The Hallows and Artorias' family than her own, but that was how it felt at times. She still respected and loved her father simply because he was her father, but the days when she had worshiped the ground he walked on were gone.
"Some things are easy to agree with... Like protecting the ones we care about or working hard to better the pack and things like that... But he's just so..." She struggled to find the right words for a moment, her ears flicking uncertainly. "He can be hypocritical and smothering," she finally landed on with a small shrug. Sometimes she didn't really catch how mature her words or perspectives were. She had been forced to grow up fast and even now that things had calmed some she still felt much older than she actually was. Sometimes it felt as if she was actually the adult and her father was somehow younger than her - at least in how he acted.
