Silver Moonlight

Lillith didn’t want him to leave and she wanted to take back what happened. He was everything he was before but he was obviously shaken. She reacted on impulse at the sudden overwhelming emotions that had filled her. Lil didn’t want this to make a difference in the relationship they had but with how quiet Romulus became she felt like something was wrong. Like she had upset him. It was a terrible feeling too. She’d tried to explain herself, ut even that didn’t seem like enough.

Still, he agreed to lead her out onto the balcony. He let her lean against him if she needed and led the way out into the night. The moon was so much brighter out here. After everything inside it almost hurt how beautiful his eyes were out here in the chill and moonlight. She tore her garnet gaze away from his bright silvery eyes and looked up into the unending night sky. Lilith would never cease to wonder at the sheer amount of stars that filled her vision. It made her emotions, sickness, her life feel very insignificant knowing how tiny she was.

She leaned against him easily despite everything as her neck craned and she followed the thickest belt of stars back up and over the castle. The night was really quiet, there was the soft sea breeze and the faint sound of the ocean but the seabirds were quiet. There wasn’t a storm for miles, it was a perfect night. So why did her belly have such a big knot in it? She took in a deep breath, it was smooth and even. She could breathe again and her skin was no longer burning. Instead she was beginning to feel the cold of the night and had little wonder about the pile of blankets on her bed.

"Thank you for staying with me,” she told him quietly, feeling close to fully recovered from whatever that was. Her illness. Always crippling her at the worst moment. After she’d lost a fight, after she’d fought a saber cat with Ezra, after she’d fought alongside Roman against the same.. When he kissed her. She should have been happy, excited, celebrating, and that was never the case. She wasn’t allowed to be happy; she had to be sick. "It’s really pretty out here. I’m not… outside a lot at night.” She confessed quietly, trying to get him talking again, anything to feel like she hadn’t ruined everything.

"Speech"