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Deathbelle still hadn’t felt decided on her future, mostly because it felt like there was no future. Not anymore. She was getting old, her children were grown, her uses were dwindling at this stage of her life. She had no heart anymore. Living in the shadow of the volcano that had consumed her husband was more difficult than before Sirius. It taunted her now. A constant suggestion of how easily she might join him.

To keep her promised Belle found her paws carrying her beyond Habari again. This time for relief. Relief from the anxiety that lived in her as she relived her mistakes again and again. There was no release only temporary distraction. She found the hot springs had become a place of melancholy. Most days she avoided them for the memories of her time with Sirius they brought, but part of her hoped today she could find relaxation within them.

When she entered the clearing that held the springs it took a moment but there was no mistaking the impressive horns and vibrant pelt of another already claimed them. Deathbelle paused, taking very little convincing to leave the hot spring as she found it.