From Time to Time

ooc: Must be the most she has thought in a thread. xD You can skim most of it, the more important/talking part are the last 3 paragraphs. lol So much that I needed to switch tables. o_0

The empathy in his face and voice made her give a small nod. Loccian was grateful for Maverick's help, had he not shown up then she most likely would have just laid there for hours with her child. She would have to find him and thank him for it, she had to, and if not then she would feel even more terrible... It was indeed difficult to do, the shewolf could only imagine what must have been going through the new King's head when he came upon Loccian like that. Broken, lost, lonely. Would he have possibly thought she was pathetic, getting so emotional when the child was already gone? No, she had good reason to act the way she had, and she wouldn't take it back even if she could. When she looked into Gerhardt's eyes it was kind of a nice thing, and just like so many have said, it was true. Looking into ones eyes was like looking into their very soul. Even if Gerhardt didn't seem to show it, she could see some pain within him, doubt even, relief, a possible feeling of freedom? All these feelings had to be a result of Adette's challenge and death, of him giving the throne to his son and his beautiful wife. Loneliness? That was something she could spot, seeing as she dealt with it for awhile now. He had to be lonely like her. Maybe they could help each other hopefully. The woman wouldn't be upset by him though because of the actions he had taken, Gerhardt had done what he thought was best for the kingdom, did as his wife wished, to kill her. Loccian couldn't see him as a murderer, a cold hearted man. Why? Because he was neither. He was the kind man she had come to know since the first day she met him, a friend, helping when she needed it. She only wished she could have been there for him after stepping down from the throne. When he mentioned being worried about the last time she harmed herself, the woman's ears folded back on her head, an embarrassed look coming across her face. It was a silly thing of her to do, which embarrassed her because for those who knew about it they would think she must have lost her mind. Did she? Loccian had thought about it a few times, wondering if she had lost herself for a brief amount of time. Whenever she did though she always came to the same conclusion, she wasn't crazy, the pain had helped her distracted her from the true pain she was suffering from. What made it even more embarrassing and made her a bit guilty, she had worried the man. He wanted to check on her but didn't want to force his presence... so kept his distance. Loccian wasn't too sure how to feel about that, yes it was really nice that he cared enough to wanna go but kept his distance to give her some time but... would his presence have helped? No, she was sure it wouldn't if the man had come into the makeshift den, then she would have felt even worse for disappearing from Seracia and coming back in such a state, potentially putting her pack mates in danger. She was their healer, she needed to be there in case something happened. Now that she thought about it though, perhaps he should have come, his words might have been able to help her. He might have been able to make something click within her... What he said next though came as a complete and unbelievable surprise. At first he was saying how she wasn't alone, that he had also been feeling the same since the challenge. It was him asking if she would wanna find a place with him, that came as a surprise. Her jaws were slightly apart, a result of his comment. The woman didn't know what to say, wasn't sure if what she was finally able to say would upset or make him relieved. It was a bit strange, so many thoughts flooding her mind immediately of the kinds of rumors that would spread if somebody were to see them sharing a den. The only times she had ever shared one, that she could remember was with her brothers at a very young age, Bronze, and Reficul. She turned away, looking down at her paws and took a deep breath. She could feel her heart start to race, a warmth forming within her body. She closed her eyes, thinking hard about what she would do and say next. Why was she suddenly feeling shy, nervous around him when she normally didn't. Was it because she was in heat? Or was it just because of the question he had asked? Surely others didn't just share dens for company, well they did but in a more close, friendly kind of manner. Maybe he was just being nice, trying to help her while at the same time seeking help from her. If it was that case then she didn't mind... for now. After a few moments of silence the grey woman was finally able to make up her mind and calm herself down, her racing heart slightly slowing down. Clearing her throat she lifted her head, turned and looked into the man's gaze with a small but shy smile. ? think I would like that, it will be a very strange thing for me to do but I would like to try it out.? She said in that soft voice of hers, tail laying over her paws, tip moving a little. She needed to keep a better hold of herself, not let these emotions from her being in heat get out of hand and make this situation awkward in the end. "normal. talk. think. you." Awesome table by Clash <3