blue lights at night

The great tragedy that come to Duchess had left Indigo and the band in what may have seemed disarray, at least to her. But somehow this huge life changing event felt like there was now nothing in Duchess life. Losing the children had left her empty and without purpose now. There was nothing left to live for.

She still found herself wandering from the band, from Indigo. Her previous attempts to seclude herself she only stayed for the purpose of the life of the pups and her life with Indigo, but it was all for nothing. She had nothing tying her down now. And while in her wandering it brought her back to where it started. Not her and Indigo, not the babies, but what left Indigo in pieces because of her and what she took from him. She felt so misunderstood by everyone in the band, she felt like she couldn't connect with them anymore. Even while through their own attempts. The feeling of being a burden only heightened from before.

She wasn't paying attention the her own surroundings, not lately. Her eyes at her paws moved her forward through the glittering blue fireflies. She stopped just by the bank of the falls, not noticing the stranger just along the rim a short distance away. She didn't stop as only her front paws went into the waters, her eyes meeting her own reflection under the violet moon and blue fireflies, matching her own colors she could have just disappeared into the air it seemed. Her chest met the water on the edge of the bank as she closed her eyes, her somber emotions shining through everything else. But there weren't any more tears to give, at least not for now.

"Duchess"