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Alastor hadn’t left them after all.  Kichi reminded himself as Alastor answered he had been the one to be left behind, just like Kichi had been later on.  The only difference was Alastor was already an adult and fully capable of thriving without her.  It wasn’t the risk of dying that had been the hard part though, it had been the pain of realizing she was gone.  The pain of knowing she either died or chose to leave him.  In that regard, Alastor would have been in the same position.  The ability to try and hate or distrust Alastor faded with that bit of logic.  

Alastor’s next question was more of a surprise.  “You know what happened,” Kichi responded slowly. “I know you were told.  They went hunting with Lurid, it was a large elk and it killed them.  I saw their graves.” The puppy Kichi had to believe on faith with no experience but Alastor bringing it up and the ghosts haunting him grew a cold knot in his belly.  Did it even matter? Dead was dead. Kichi took a slow exhale, “That wasn’t it then, was it?  Lurid killed them didn’t she and you knew?” That last statement had a hint of accusation.  

Kichi had never considered it before as a pup he’d worked so hard to not think of his parent's death at first and at some point, the boy had believed his own lie that he didn’t care.  Maybe he was wrong and Lurid hadn’t killed them but what else would line up so perfectly?  He had almost just asked Alastor what it was but this was the worst scenario he could imagine.  Could he have really been that dumb, could he really? His heart was pounding louder than normal suddenly, his breath felt tighter in his chest.  No.  He misunderstood.  How much of an idiot could he be after all?

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