because i'm broken

He knew they saw him and the dark cloud that he had become. All that mattered was waking up, doing the work the band needed done until he was so exhausted that he couldn’t think about the events that plagued him. Tonight though.. For some reason he had stopped early and instead of dropping into a shallow fitful sleep as usual he left himself here at the edge of the stream to linger in his thoughts. For a few days after the tragedy Indigo had cried, to the point he thought he wouldn’t be able to cry again. Yet here he was, the tears streaming down his cheeks. His chest a massive gaping hole.

Indigo didn’t know how to fix himself, if he did he would have done so by now. There was no repair, Indigo was broken and he saw no light at the end of his dark road. His dreams were dashed and destroyed, his life turned completely upside down. He felt like he had nothing.

Then Segin was there. Indigo lifted his head, dull blue eyes finding Segin’s dark mottled form as he pressed against him. He didn’t have to exert much effort to slip into Indy’s embrace. The sudden warmth, affection, and love, were everything that Indy needed as tears streamed down his features. He wanted to be alone, but his soul craved this company. Almost on instinct Indigo’s massive arms wrapped around Segin and pulled him closer. He was thankful that there were no words between them, he wasn’t certain he could speak even if Segin’’s sweet words met his ears.

There was no fix, but physical comfort managed to cover a bit of the ever present pain that filled Indigo and his life. He lost his love, he lost his children, but there were still wolves here that cared for him, and he felt deeply for in turn. Indy buried his features into Segin’s soft fur as he tried to control the tears that fell.

Indigo Arcturus Fatalis