The Beginning Is The End Is The Beginning

Rudy was tired of being in the infirmary but he was more tired of the pain and was doing his best to not even look at the paw or behind at the tail or lack-thereof.   Frequently there were others in the room with him, sometimes that was nice sometimes he would prefer to be alone.  He felt funny in a way Rudy had no description for and so he didn’t bother mentioning it.   That said he had a real desire to get up and head back to his room.  Sure, it would hurt but there would be privacy and how bad could it really be?

As he pondered that Fern walked into the room.  She was one of the wolves that was with him so much of the time lately.  She had continuously been there for him and while that was thoughtful Rudy was in no mood for it.  Perhaps his sullenness was childish but damn it this wasn’t fair, none of it was.  Rudy had been blaming himself but now he was starting to see others were at fault even more than he was.

Bright bit of ooze could be seen peeking out from the ears, just now starting to collect in there, hardly noticeable unless someone looked for it.  He could feel the liquid with the same level of irritation as a fly might give, easy to ignore for now.  Rudy let out a deep exhale as he considered the grey wolf.  He had brought her here to begin with but had never expected to be in this situation.

“You know, there’s no need for you to be here all the time.  Get to know some of the other wolves,” Rudy suggested with a tired voice.  Soon he was gonna leave here for sure and get back to his room.

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