The Beginning Is The End Is The Beginning

Fern’s eyes are distant and tired as she looks at the angry Rudy. Everything in her screams to snap back at his harsh words to blame him for all that has happened. There is a swirling darkness looming inside her head, threatening to unleash its wrath upon him. A distant part of the gray girl knows that something is wrong with her. She wants to fight it, to try and remember why she is mad at him but nothing makes sense anymore.

Her frame becomes taut with barely suppressed rage as half-truths and misremembered memories cloud her head. It is like she is looking at everything that has happened through shattered pieces of glass. They warp and distort everything. When Rudy speaks, flames of hatred lick at her brain, threatening to consume the gray girl. Body shakes as she clamps her mouth shut, allowing his words to strike into her. Suddenly the fog in her mind lifts, and the light of understanding washes over her.

However, the darkness has skewed every single memory Fern has of Rudyard, painting the picture of how much he hates her. She now knows, it is the fact that he had here brought her here and she useless... weak, that makes the injured wolf stare at her with contempt. When Rudyard tells her to leave, Fern twists her face into a vicious smirk, opening her mouth and preparing to unleash all the hateful words that crowd her brain. Suddenly, the injured wolf gathers his good legs under him and tries to stand.

The rage inside Fern dies as the cold tendrils of worry quickly snake through her. Blinking rapidly, Fern shakes her skull, trying understand what in the hell is happening. Fern’s aqua gaze looks at Rudyard confused. Why is he saying he wants her to leave and take an escort? Dazed eyes take in the fact that the wounded wolf is standing as her brain tries to sluggishly register this. Just as it clicks in the exhausted girl’s mind, Rudy is suddenly planting his butt back onto the bed and collapsing to his stomach as he grumbles and scratches at his right ear.

Bewilderment clouds her mind, making her already lethargic thoughts come to a grinding halt as she stares at him. Her mouth hangs open, unable to process everything that has happened and what is happening right in front of her. Only when Rudy cuts a notch into his ear does Fern come back to life. Lunging toward the already injured wolf, Fern aims to try and trap the paw that is digging a bloody furrow into Rudy’s ear. Fern’s movements are uncoordinated and jerky as she dives toward him, the need to stop the hurt wolf from damaging himself any further, drives her forward.


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