but when I think of you another shower starts

No amount of apologizing would stop the hurt that came from finding out her mom had died, and even if Fidelias felt like Valhalla was his home Kaija just couldn't relate. She had nowhere to go, no one to turn to now - nobody but Ophie, really, and while once that had been a freeing thought it just felt stifling now. At least Kaija had her family and her pack, even if she felt they didn't understand her. She frowned a little, choking back a quiet sob as Ophie leaned into her and she tried to still her thoughts. She'd never felt pain and loneliness quite like this before and she didn't know what to do with all her feelings. Shoving them deep down and out of her mind was working for now, but would it stay that way?

"We should go on an adventure. Go see the world," she suggested, warily at first. Nothing was keeping her here, and though she knew her friend's life was different she knew she was unhappy sometimes.. well, a lot of the time. And what better time to go see the world, now that the long night had finally lifted? Spring was slowly sneaking back into the lands and soon the world would be brimming with life once again, recovering from the painful months they'd all endured. There was no better time for them to do this.

"We can go anywhere we want. My dad's told me about so many cool places - did you know there's a lake up north, frozen with fireflies trapped beneath the ice? And stars - there's so many stars, Ophie," she explained wistfully. "I know there's stars here too, but they look different in other places. There's so much we could see together." Kaija sounded a little panicked as she kept speaking. Ophie had to agree with her; she didn't know what she'd do if she didn't. Kaija couldn't stay here and she certainly couldn't go back west to Valhalla. She needed to keep moving, needed something new and exciting to reignite the spark she'd once had, seemingly quenched by the never-ending darkness.