When I Wake Up

As it was, Duchess was not getting any better from the betrayal and loss. She solely blamed herself for what had happened in total. Deceiving Indigo, and losing the babies. Even if there was nothing specific that had happened for her to cause the miscarriage.

She still found herself out and away from the band, wandering. Even after she had temporarily lost her sight. She seemed to not learn her lesson or take something greater of it. To her, she was still as worthless as she was then and before. But she wouldn't let anyone in to help fix her, she was certainly the mass of her own destruction.

She carried a cloth out to the hot springs, folded in her mouth while she quietly scoped for a pool that she could relax in easily. She couldn't help the small thought though of consuming the mushroom and drowning in the pool. She was more on the case of if it happened so be it, but not more intentional at least.

Slipping into one of the pools of the springs, she swam to one side and placed her paws up on the edge while she dropped her make-shift sack and revealed the mushrooms inside. Her head rested down beside them, as if she was almost contemplating taking them or not. Her eyes closed as she relaxed on the bank letting the hot water soak into her back and hips.

"Duchess"