My Head Was Under Water

He knew she needed help, Indigo knew she was just as broken inside. He knew there was a part of her that had never truly been healed when Draco hurt her. Indy tried to help her, but he should have been smart enough or observant enough to know he was only making things worse, he had always just been helping her down the wrong road. Now he was living with that mistake as he tried to restructure their relationship around anything but sex. As he held her lightly he knew, just by the way she clung to him, that was not what Duchess could see or want.

She pulled at him. Her dainty paws grabbed at his mane as she pressed herself into him and spoke with a needy whisper. Before he would have fallen into temptation easily, she was so soft, sweet, and sad. It would be easy to indulge and forget about everything resting on his shoulders. Forget about the horrible past they shared, try and remember those few moments of bliss they had shared at one time.

”I’m here Duchess.” He reminded her carefully, knowing exactly what she meant and not knowing how to tell her it wasn’t for the best. ”I’ll hold you, cry with you, talk to you… but we can’t…” Indigo trailed off. He couldn’t repeat his mistakes. He couldn’t go through that again, Indigo knew he wasn’t strong enough.

Indigo Arcturus Fatalis