i've been locked inside your heart shaped box for weeks
tenshi
02-10-2022, 03:35 AM
The steady throb of her own heart... Nirvana was grateful for it. Comforted by it. She needed it. It was her mother's blood that ran hot in her veins, after all. It was her heart that kept it going. Yes, she'd rely on it. She could rely on that to tie her to her family... to tie the pieces of herself together. All Nirvana truly needed was herself. Though she loved her family, she wouldn't burden them. She wouldn't let herself rely on them. Especially with the pups... Avacyn and Saracyn, Alastor said they'd been named. Nirvana was even more hesitant to return to her family knowing that they'd been born. She couldn't be another mouth to feed for them. Until her skills were sharper, she'd just be a rank and file member of their military forces. Nirvana couldn't have that either. No, until she could really make something of herself, she didn't want to return to them. Still, she didn't want to go too far yet either. There was comfort in knowing that her family was nearby. It was nice to know, truly. They'd always been so good to her... Nirvana wanted to be good to them in the same way. A war inside her head. If they had to care about her, she was a burden. She was taking up space in their lives, and what did the stormy girl have to offer in return? Nothing. It felt like a hell of a lot of nothing. Nirvana's heart ached as she thought about it. The girl drew to the lake, peering out over it, and on to the rock garden. It was pretty here. It was nice here. Maybe that was why it suited them so well. She did her best not to scowl as she took the place in. Still... scowling is easier. Maybe she had to look unapproachable to get by. Still on fairly high alert, the girl dipped her muzzle to take a long drink of the cool water in the lake. High in the sky, the midmorning sun shone around her shoulders. At least the scenery was decent. |