Fight To Keep It Down

There wasn't anything more Duchess could feel. She was truly at her bottom here with Indigo at their baby's graves. The more he spoke, the more numb she felt. But she couldn't feel anymore terrible about everything that had happened. She looked up at him, her paw going to place itself in the plush fur of his chest as she quickly spoke out, "It's not your fault." She could have, wanted to scream it at him. She didn't want to allow him to believe that any part of what happened between them was in his own blame. Or the band leaving.

Her breath in was shaky from her tears, and she found herself pulling into him to kiss his lips. She didn't want anything more from him, but she was desperate for him. She tried to force bad intentions through her actions, she wanted to scare him away. If he let her kiss him or not she stopped with eyes down at his chest to plead with him and confess a lie of what she wanted even if he had retracted from her, "I want to Indigo but..." her dual toned eyes flicked back up to him but there was no different emotions from the last moments with him. She was on the same plane. "Tell me no again." She wanted him to give her a reason not to come back, a reason to feel she was worthless to him. As much as that may not have been true she wanted it to be justified. She wanted her delusions to be real. Indigo didn't want her. She needed it to be the end.

"Duchess"
F2U base by Snowylaika