Change The Inside Of Me

Reila was lost in her own head until Chimera's voice came through her ears and made a breakthrough to her. She backed up off the gazelle and a couple more steps away, watching Chimera as he split the deer's insides out on the ground. She was silent, but inside she was on fire. Her breathing was off as she still tasted the blood of the gazelle in her mouth, looking at it's innards in the ground. It wasn't something that grossed her out, it was just something taking her back into her traumatizing days that weren't so far in the past.

The glaze in her eyes was lifeless, and maybe a little scared. But when Chimera turned to talk to her again, she was able to regain herself. Even if more emotionless than when they started their hunt. "I was not running away." She stated quickly, but not bluntly. She could have told him the hunt was for the pack as a thank you, but she didn't. She couldn't even really pull her thoughts together properly right now. "I don't want to leave. But does that mean I want to stay?" That was an honest question from her. She wanted him to answer. All she had known was the life on the ship and traveling while on sale. She couldn't say if her being inside the pack was something she truly wanted, or if she had this exaggerated slice of heaven around her. It was an entirely different way of life. But she couldn't believe she would be happier anywhere else. Not with the thoughts that were still plaguing her mind. She was willing to settle without doing a run around or staying on the run wondering if she would ever be caught by Atlas.

"Reila"