Why Mess Up A Good Thing

While she was looking over her shoulder she was surprised to see when Alastor was sitting outside her den waiting for her. She wouldn't turn to run again, it seemed it was time to face him, she probably never would have on her own terms. It was meant to be this way.

Her ears pulled back slightly as she drew closer to him, her eyes diverting from him but without turning away this time. Her expression showed her loss in being caught, though she knew it was rather obvious what she had been doing. She guessed she would own up to it now.

Something about the way he spoke to her even in his own usual mannerisms didn't sit well with her. Claiming their night together as a mess wasn't really a compliment and it hurt her in some small way. She bit her tongue in response, she supposed he had the right for the way she had been acting.

"God, no Al... I..." She took a step back from him, not really in show that she was afraid of him or anything like that. More like she was embarrassed in the situation. The way she struggled with her outward emotions was nothing new to him, but she couldn't find a comfortable ground to stay on. "I..." Her breath huffed out harshly as she tried to break the ice around her and just be able to speak. It wasn't easy. She looked at him for a brief few seconds before aggressively pulling her eyes off of him and flopping her rump onto the ground. "I can't look at you without thinking about you fucking my brains out." Her voice edged on irritated, but that wasn't really a bad thing... she had mixed feelings over it. It was all a new, first experience for her. And after her life of feeling like every touch other than a painful one was wrong, she couldn't help but feel uneasy about the way she was feeling now. "I can't sleep, I can't close my eyes..." was she pulling on obsessive? She was making herself sick to the emotions while feeling gross and cringey. But she could be honest with him, even if that meant he would go on with the avoidance because of what she said. She was okay with that. Her paw ran over her face as if she was trying to hide herself, "What the fuck did you do to me." It was meant to go without answer, just a statement maybe to show how much she was fighting with herself.

"Relm"
F2U base by AshKatu