You Went Away

He'd left her and the pack, unintentionally, but he'd left regardless. In the moment he hadn't thought much about it, just he had an urge to leave and he was going to do it and that's what he'd done. Even after he'd left, thoughts of having in a sense abandoend Chrys never crossed his mind. And especially when he was with his she-twin, any thoughts that didn't pertain to her didn't matter. But now that he'd parted ways with her, at least for the time being since he didn't want to be away from her for too long, all the previously pushed away thoughts came rushing back, Chrys at the forefront of them all. It was like his younger sister Luna all over again.


His bi-colored gaze registered the surprise that flashed across her clayed facade. She obviously hadn't been expecting to run into him, just as he hadn't been expecting to run into her. Fate worked in funny ways. She blinked her azure gaze as she watched him, darkened lips parting as she spoke a single syllable; his name. Just his name, the way she spoke it, made him cringe inwardly. She was upset with him, though not as much as she could be. Imagine meeting you out here. You smell of a new pack as well as a new woman. she spoke, metioning Desdemona, his friend, nothing more, nothing less, at least not at the moment. She hadn't reprimanded him yet, but she might as well have from how horrible he felt just being in her presence. He didn't feel deserving of her attention anymore. Hindquarters folded beneath the massive brute, lowering him into a sitting position, shoulders hunched, head held low, gaze downcast. He was completely ashamed of himself.


What was he supposed to say? The damage had already been done. He couldn't take it back even if wanted to. It was just like his sister's death; he couldn't go back and stop it from happening. It was in the past. And then she was speaking again, commenting about how she wished Tortuga was treating him well. I have not joined Tortuga yet and Desdemona is not my woman. She is my friend. he breathed finally, his voice barely above a whisper. Demonio lifted his icy and maroon eyes, spotting the slight smile that curved her lips yet didn't touch her azure gems. Yes, she was hurt and it had been all his fault. Even if he apologized a million times, he would never be able to take away what he did. He'd been stupid and inconsiderate, just as he had been with little Luna. Was the history repeating itself all over again, only this time allowing him some way to somewhat repair the damage he'd cost?


Auditory system rotated forward atop his crown, listening as she questioned his reason for having left, adding how Collision had been willing to give him a rank to start in the pack. Collision. The king. How did he feel towards the ivory knight? Did he too resent his having not attended the meeting as he had said he would? I will never be able to forgive myself for having done such a thing to you Chrys, for having left without a goodbye. It had not been my intention; I had not thought things through. I can't tell you the exact reason why I left because I myself am not sure. Perhaps I was still trying to deal with the ghosts of my past and I did not want to bring such things upon Valhalla. I deeply regret having gone back on my word to the king and not attending the meeting. I hope to perhaps find him soon and apologize for my mistake. I understand if you are upset with me, you have every right to be. I apologize a million times for my idiocy, you did not deserve my having left you. If you can, I would ask for your humble forgiveness for my stupidity. He let out a long breath, lowering his gaze, allowing his shoulders to sag even more, crown dropping nearly to the ground, audits pinned absolutely flat against his skull as he waited for her verdict.


OOC: ahh poor Demonio, he feels like such a jerk and don't worry about it, he totally deserves it ._.


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