Not What You’d Think

Her ears fell back at the shuddering breath the small touch of her paw was met with and she pulled her white dipped paw back as he rolled toward her a bit, revealing his tear-marked face as he sobbed. She was taken aback by the sudden display of emotion from her brother who hardly ever allowed his emotions to come to the surface, watching his face in the darkness as her own chest clenched with painful emotions. She had never seen him like this before and it both worried and scared her. She didn’t know how to respond at first, at a loss for words as he stared into the dark of night and questioned her, asking between his sobs how she could have done this to him.

Part of her wanted to feel guilty, the same part of her that believed Balthier could be her one and only and going to Erys had been cheating on him. That side of her was the inner voice she struggled with the truth. But the other side of her, the one that had over powered the other that night with the help of some wine, knew how things had really been and knew better than to let her believe that. She couldn’t look back on what she had done with Erys with anything but fondness and she refused to let Balthier taint that memory that she had.

She didn’t respond right away, her own anger at the situation building as she tried to find her words. "I had never had anyone make love to me and be able to look me in the eye and not look guilty when we were done," she told him as she started to sit up, keeping to one side of the bed while he was on the other. Her ears were pulled back and her brow was creased as she spoke, wondering if he would even listen to her in his current state. "Have you never considered how messed up that is? Or how that made me feel? To… to love someone that couldn’t look me in the eye and feel good about being together?" She glanced away from him with a sigh, frustrated tears gathering in her own eyes.

"Azzurra"