So Much Harder To Leave

Relm could be completely open talking about Kefka with Alastor as she was with most everything. But still the thought of him made her a little tense, it wasn't a comfortable subject even in the way Alastor mentioned. There may have been a time in Relm's life where making her father happy was the most important to her, but being able to look back on it now she realized it was just this set expectation of herself. It wasn't out of her heart, it was of some sort of approval by him. Back then, she was a child. And she was different. But in that right, if anything had happened to Kefka before then Alastor may have seemed more like a father than a lover and it probably would have grown from that. Who was to say it wouldn't be different between them now, but the idea had made Relm realize just the wreck of her life. It may not have been as bad as others, or at least in the way she felt about never having a mother and the situation of her father. But everything could have been wholly different today if Alastor had did as he said.

She still stayed quiet, leaving things unsaid as he would soon enough. But just that bit of internal struggle inside of her could have been present to him. When she looked up to him and they met gazes it always felt special to her, more than he may have known. The way he talked to her, about her, there was nothing but adoration in her eyes when she looked at him. He did make her feel worthy in a sense, in ways she had never known before. When she could be around him, talk to him, and be tangled up in him. Anytime she was with Alastor she just yearned for more of him. It had become more emotional than she had ever intended.

He'd draw closer to her, place his paw on hers, her gaze more intense only in the emotions she felt for him. She'd never flinch or back away, she did trust Alastor with her whole self. She watched him as he held back and there was a part of her that knew why. Or what. But with his smile rising again she couldn't help but pull one up herself if only for the second. Her gaze pulled from his as the paw he was touching reached up to wrap gently around his foreleg before she'd look back up at him with that subtle and genuine grin, "I do love you Alastor. I don't want to imagine a life without you." The unspoken, for him and maybe for her too. It was a thank you in a way, for being able to make her feel confident through her insecurities. For not judging her, for making it feel easy. She was different from their last time at the lake. She'd take advantage of anything she could take from Alastor when it was the two of them. She didn't need their physical desires filled, she'd love him just this way. She wouldn't linger afterwards, pulling slightly away from him as if to keep up their faux patrol around the lake, maybe diverting in a way. "Where do we start?"

"Relm"