So Much Harder To Leave

His returned four letter word could take her breath away as cliche as that may have sounded. But Relm was still young, inexperienced in everything that wasn’t Alastor and a whole different woman when she was around others. Alastor would be labeled as her first, and what she believed would be her only love down to this confession. It was what she wanted to hear, wanted to know. But something would always be between them. There was no altering time to the point they had come even if Alastor wouldn’t have changed what he had done for her. Relm would always see that maybe she was meant to be Alastor’s, but he was never meant to be hers. It was the way she looked down on herself, found little worth in her own life given how she was made. She didn’t want to die, but there were many times she just didn’t want to be. When she was here with Alastor, she didn’t want to be anywhere else.

Her breath shuddered lightly from the emotions she felt as he looked down at her and her eyes kept his gaze. But it was easy for her to push it aside. At least she made it seem so even if he knew her better. He had seen her emotional before but she didn’t want anyone to see her that way. She knew, she could feel the way he felt her, knew how she was feeling. But she didn’t want that greater part outside. She didn’t want to make it any more harder on him. It’s why she turned away and diverted. it was easy to indulge in the physical desires with him and feel so mentally tethered to him, it was harder to actually evaluate the situation they were in.

The weather was really no concern for her but she didn’t have anything waiting for her back on Alias or worry about drying out her pelt. She wouldn’t think twice as she let Alastor take one step ahead of her in the lead, just going on about the day. Still in motion, her eyes glanced back towards Alastor as he asked which she was referring to, lifting a small grin on her maw, "I thought we may have had one of those already down at least." She teased him back, falling out of the emotional state that was threatening her moments before. Her face turned a little more serious as he spoke on the pack matters but she looked at him intently in the process. "I can arrange a... meeting." she had to admit that sounded kind of weird being so secluded into herself since she had joined Elysium. "We can group our fighters together to spar, maybe melee. Have them learn from each other and evaluate where they need to work on." Relm paused enough for Alastor to get his own pieces in if he wanted, but ultimately back tracked a little bit in their conversation, "I’m typically neutral, but what’s the deal with the Pirates?" she was genuinely curious and had only known of the tension between them and nothing further.

"Relm"