Never Let It Get That Far

She felt like her whole body went still when Ikigai told her she was having a miscarriage. But really she wasn't. She was still in that shiver of shock from the physical things happening to her. Still she held her breath at least, maybe it was prominent because she was shaking. She wasn't really all that surprised she guessed. Everything had come together in her head up from about a week ago to what she was experiencing now. She just didn't want to see it. She didn't want to believe it. She wouldn't know the consequences of having Alastor's children, but she knew it wouldn't be a good thing. Not for Manea, maybe not for him either. It wasn't something she had to worry about now, clearly.

She was stuck in a dark loop as if she was somewhere completely different than here on the cot until Ikigai gave her some mixed herbs. She wouldn't refuse. Maybe she was reacting pretty well for a woman who just learned she lost children, but so much more was going on inside her head. She was never really good at showing or speaking emotions.

She took the herbs without question, a near silent sigh leaving her lips as Ikigai had asked her name. Or maybe she didn't ask, she was just being polite. Relm couldn't say she knew who she was either. "Uh, Relm." She laid back a little more in the cot as another contraction came to pass. The only thing on her mind now was the thought of Alastor walking in. She hoped to god he didn't. She wanted to keep it to herself. "I need to... keep running patrols." Maybe it was something silly to respond in these circumstances. But she needed to act like everything was fine. She needed to keep moving into her routine so nothing would seem off about her. From the eyes of Alastor that was. She wasn't going to jump up right now to go do her duties, but there would be no one to stop her starting... tomorrow she thought.

"Relm"