take away my pain

She moved almost painfully slow, a potent smelling mixture of herbs gripped loosely within her jaws. Yellow eyes seemed distant as she walked back towards Tortuga, swaying slightly as if she was dizzy. She had been bad, she had gone against her every belief today and now she felt lost... One fun night with Creedance had brought her back for more, her had brought her back to the hot springs in search for him. Lo and behold she had found him, most as if fate had wished for them to meet again be had been there and waiting. It had been a moment a weakness and now she had to deal with the consequences. Only once before had she been in this situation and because of it she had sworn off men. If she was being completely honest, she was scared... She knew what kind of pain was to come if she are these herbs.

But to have children...

It had never been her plan, she had never wanted to plague herself with pups. Having watched what pregnancy had done to various other females it made her even less keen on the idea of having some of her own. To have her stomach stretch, tests swell and to expel some demon spawn from her body after being forced to carry them really did not interest her in the least. But she remembered the pain and sickness that came with these herbs and the closer she got to home the more she began to shake. She needed guidance, she wanted the goddess or her brother even but both were unable to help... She knew that these herbs needed to be injected sighing a day of conception and already she was pushing that limit. So she had headed home, headed for the sister she barely knew but the closest family she had. Maybe Io could have helped too but Vi hadn't seen her since she had come to the boarders to join. Zara was all she had.

Since meeting the massive, scarred she wolf at the pack meeting Vj had since invited her to live with Vi in her den. Kylar and Vi had lived together in it for almost a year, the space large enough for three comfortably as well as space for plants to be dried from the ceiling. Maybe with time they could dig I out further but for now it suited their needs. Though Zara wasn't much for talking it was nice to be around family again. It was nice to not feel as lonely at nights and it was nice to have a job. Zara could care for herself well enough for a blind lady but Vi had taken to hunting for the both of them. The red woman didn't feel the same blood bond to this sibling as she did to her brother but it was there none the less... And as she approached the den her trembling only increased, pausing outside to peer in. "Sister...?" She called softly as she dropped the herbs, her voice as dry and brittle as she felt.

Speech!