What You Need Isn't Always What You Want

For the first time in their lives she looked at Saracyn and didn't know or understand what she saw. When he snapped back at her, when he denied the reason she was trying to get him to see, when hit her paws away and denied her affection... This was a Saracyn she didn't know and it made her feel like she couldn't breathe. Her rock, her one tether to sanity in the ever mounting pressure and responsibilities that were building constantly around her, pushed her away and denied the one possibility that could allow them to truly be together the best that they could manage within the constraints of the laws that she would be expected to uphold. She couldn't see this situation how he did. She understand what part of this brought such a visceral, angry reaction out of him, but he clearly couldn't understand why she saw this as their ticket to loving one another as they wanted so for once it seemed like it was impossible for them to see eye to eye. For their entire lives it felt like they spoke a language that only they could understand and now all of the sudden they had both changed languages to something entirely different.

Everything he said sank the painful spear deeper into her chest. It felt like everything she had done to try and include him and make him the center point of her world had been for nothing. Everything he said about being second best, how he shouldn't have been born, how what he wanted didn't matter... It was all a slap in the face to everything she had ever done to show him how much he mattered to her and as he went to step past her all she could do was stare where he had once been standing as the tears that had been glistening in her eyes fell into her fur, struggling to pull a full breath into her lungs with how tight her chest felt. Her world was crumbling around her and she didn't have the strength to stop him as he moved past her and began to walk away. "You have never been second best... Not to me. You never will be," she managed after she swallowed past a hard lump in her throat. Regardless of whether he stopped or even heard her, Avacyn got to her paws and started to carry herself back up the mountain path, ignoring their mother as Manea tried to ask her what happened, and instead hiding away in her room while she waited for the sting and pain of it all to subside.

"Avacyn Medacium"