Hide It All
Arcturus
09-27-2022, 09:00 PM
It seemed like life had given her a drastic turn of events and to her it felt like one disaster after another. Her mother had died and she had spent the long night in a wave of illness. Just as she felt she was getting her bearings with meeting Arcturus, she was forced out of her home. It was hard for her. It could be expected.
She still tried to look forward, tried to find the silver lining with Arcturus when her thoughts were just too deep. It was suffocating to her. She didn't really like to share her emotions, so maybe that's why it was so hard to navigate the future while she was till stuck on her life before. She was working on moving on, but everyday she wished she could go back in time and change what had happened in her life. She felt like she wouldn't be the shy reserved girl she was had her mother still been here and she lived an average life.
Tonight was one of those nights, too many thoughts in her head. Once she thought she was going to sleep, she realized she wasn't. It was a burning cycle. With the pack in it's early stages she had taken a temporary den for the time being. Maybe the thought of living with Arcturus was there and maybe he even expected but honestly she was struggling to get too attached to him. He had become her whole life in a way, but she didn't want to become dependent on him. Emotionally that was. She felt like she couldn't take another loss in her life and that's all she could think about when she felt close to him.
She may have been a little restless while her first heat had finally come her way. It had made her a little more emotional, and little more anxious. Everything was changing in and around her. It was a drastic time. She finally built up the courage because honestly she couldn't get him off her mind. She had found comfort in Arcturus before, and it was nights like this where she wanted nothing more. She held back most of the time, for that hidden fear. But tonight for the first time since they had formed Valta did she leave her den to make her way over to his. She hesitated as she made it to the doorway, and without really announcing her presence she moved forward to find her way beside him. Her paws were careful as they tried to sneak their way around his neck and lay with him stomach to stomach. She wouldn't say anything, just press her cheek into the plush of his mane and hold onto him in a gentle and somewhat desperate grasp.
"Arc & Vanille"
She still tried to look forward, tried to find the silver lining with Arcturus when her thoughts were just too deep. It was suffocating to her. She didn't really like to share her emotions, so maybe that's why it was so hard to navigate the future while she was till stuck on her life before. She was working on moving on, but everyday she wished she could go back in time and change what had happened in her life. She felt like she wouldn't be the shy reserved girl she was had her mother still been here and she lived an average life.
Tonight was one of those nights, too many thoughts in her head. Once she thought she was going to sleep, she realized she wasn't. It was a burning cycle. With the pack in it's early stages she had taken a temporary den for the time being. Maybe the thought of living with Arcturus was there and maybe he even expected but honestly she was struggling to get too attached to him. He had become her whole life in a way, but she didn't want to become dependent on him. Emotionally that was. She felt like she couldn't take another loss in her life and that's all she could think about when she felt close to him.
She may have been a little restless while her first heat had finally come her way. It had made her a little more emotional, and little more anxious. Everything was changing in and around her. It was a drastic time. She finally built up the courage because honestly she couldn't get him off her mind. She had found comfort in Arcturus before, and it was nights like this where she wanted nothing more. She held back most of the time, for that hidden fear. But tonight for the first time since they had formed Valta did she leave her den to make her way over to his. She hesitated as she made it to the doorway, and without really announcing her presence she moved forward to find her way beside him. Her paws were careful as they tried to sneak their way around his neck and lay with him stomach to stomach. She wouldn't say anything, just press her cheek into the plush of his mane and hold onto him in a gentle and somewhat desperate grasp.
