That's not who I am

Cina's brow furrowed a bit as Tira pointed out how no matter how much he tired to hide his lineage it was never going to go away. Of course he knew that to be a fact, but it wasn't something he liked to think about. Maybe that was one reason why he had enjoyed living in Fenmyre so much. They had been secluded on the island and he had been free to live there with Chimera and his family without any kind of recognition or judgement. However, even that had run its course when Ignis suddenly found him on the land bridge. He tried not to think about the fact that he had been looking for Tira at the time when he had gotten into that fight with Ignis. Given their current conversation it felt a little bit too much like fate was forcing him to face what he had been running from and that wasn't something he was prepared to fully process right now. He knew he wasn't the only one with a fucked up family, but his was certainly the worst he had encountered and the more he could do to separate himself and make his own place in this world the more comfortable he would be.

He didn't respond right away, still reeling a bit from suddenly being forced to share this side of himself he hadn't been ready to address, but when Tira gave him an ultimatum over whether or not he wanted to stay now that he knew that she knew it was easier for him to respond. Trust wasn't something that came easy to him. Everyone in his life until he met Chimera had betrayed him in some way and it had been far easier to keep everyone well outside that outer persona that he created. It was the reason he had been the way he was when they first met. But Tira challenged him in a way no one else really had and if he was going to have anyone know his secrets he would rather it be her. "No. I don't want to leave," he told her as he started to get to his paws and looked to her apologetically. "I know you don't intend to hurt me. If you did you would have outed me to Kotori already. And I know you're right, I know I can't run from it forever, but I'm just... I'm not ready for that yet. I just want to be me and not have to think about what I came from while trying to make a new life for myself for the third time." His ears flicked back and he gave her a pleading glance. He wasn't the kind of wolf to apologize or ask for help, but Tira had already seen right through his outer shell on more than one occasion at this point so he wasn't sure if there was even a point in trying to piece that bravado back together just yet. "Can we just pretend this didn't happen for now and revisit it later? Please?"

"Cináed & Satira"