All I See is You

As Keahi tries to screw up the courage to air her self-doubt about her appearance, the red woman has no idea what Ruga is weighing in his own mind. Truthfully, she feels that she is being petty about the whole damn thing and, lost in her thoughts, she slowly turns over why it is bothering her so much. His words pull her gaze up to him and she blinks in silent surprise, as he seems worried all of the sudden. Brows furrow in confusion for a moment until he speaks again and the realization that he has his own doubts about their realtionship slams home. Paws stop and her blue eyes are suddenly ablaze with determination and she demands, “Ruga. Look at me.”

The fire in her ocean blue eyes is bright with love and the need to reassure him overtakes her as she waits for him to stop and meet her gaze. Once he does, a soft, gentle smile appears on her red lips and she says, “There is no one else, Ruga. And I am not dumping you. I know you worry about that but I swear, this has nothing to do with… that.” The last word is carefully picked and it takes a moment for her to choose it as she skirts the word relationship and us. Holding his gaze for a moment longer, she begins to feel the scars on her cheek burn and she finally breaks the eye contact.

Huffing a sigh, Keahi rushes through her next words, too afraid that, if she stops or meets his eyes, she won’t get them out, “I’ve noticed the way you look at me since the raid. And the way you won’t touch them. I know I failed the pack Ruga but I… I can’t stand the thought of you thinking I am failure.” Tears sting her eyes and looks up, meets his gaze as she finally admits, “I can’t stand to think that you now look at me differently. Like I am… ugly.” The last words are hard to get out as her throat sudden feels swollen and she bites the inside of her cheek to keep a sob from creeping out. Chest puffs out as she readies for him to admit everything she has been worrying about.


"Keahi Mogotsi"