Love Me or Hate Me

Ignis · 03-15-2023, 05:47 PM

He was laying everything out. The old wounds that he thought would someday heal...they hadn't. The heartache he thought he'd someday get over. Still ached. He didn't know what the hell it was about Corvus, but no matter what he tried to do in order to forget, no matter how hard he tried to get rid of the way he felt, nothing seemed to work. Eden. His children. The pirates. Getting into fight after fight after fight, accumulating scar after scar after scar...the physical pain was only temporary, and though they left lasting scars, nothing seemed to be working. Hell, he hadn't even known what to think of the relationship he and Eden had. He swore that at one point, she was actually starting to help him get over this...but then it all spiraled when she disappeared, and then...well...here he was, right back to square one. He swore he'd been through everything and had nothing but pain and regret to show for it. Sure, he loved his kids, but his vices seemed to be getting in the way of them, too.

"I'm sorry." Ig sighed deeply, head hanging just a little lower as he drew in those words. "You had to know I loved you too, right? I don't think I had the words for it then, but… then the way everything went…" Yes...he knew...he couldn't remember everything that happened the last time they saw each other, but he had gotten a picture of it. It was why he had avoided looking for Corvus all this time...he knew something bad had happened, he just couldn't clearly remember what. "I know..." Did he still love him? Or had Corvus managed to move on, unlike himself? He half-heartedly smiled as Corvus tried to cheer him up, but he knew that it simply wouldn't be. He was a destroyer. At least, he was pretty sure of it, anyway. Nothing in his life had ever gone right, even in his earlier years before all of this.

And when he saw Corvus take a few small steps toward him and stop, the look in his eyes, the waver he had previously heard in his voice...Ig wanted nothing more than to feel the comfort of the only one in his life he truly trusted and loved. He swallowed past the lump that had formed in his own throat and stepped forward. Slow at first, then his paws ached to simply get him to the earthen male as quickly as possible, but he restrained himself. He didn't want to look like a desperate fool, but perhaps he'd already been showing that from the get-go. He approached Corvus, head still down as he sought to press his head into the warmth of his chest if he let him.

"Ignis"||"Blödhgarm"

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