Absences & Scarcity
04-30-2023, 10:19 AM
(This post was last modified: 04-30-2023, 10:23 AM by Lolaf. Edited 1 time in total.)
Just realized my last scarcity notice was removed so reposting and requesting this one stay up until such time that I ask for it to be removed.
Type: Scarcity
Name: Lolaf
Characters: All
Date leaving: Months ago
Date returning: Unknown
Why?: As stated prior, I'm just dealing with a lot of compounding issues. I do now have a positive ADHD diagnosis but it's still largely running rampant as my current medication is either not strong enough or doesn't work for me and I have exactly 0 coping mechanisms due to late diagnosis which means I am extremely at the mercy of my executive dysfunction, things like task initiation in particular are very difficult for me, I can have all the motivation in the world to do something I enjoy and yet there will be something making it impossible to translate the desire to do the thing into the action of doing the thing, this is as you can imagine, incredibly distressing and often exhausting if I try to push through the block for long periods of time. I'm also finding that my brain fog has been stronger lately. This on top of a still unknown mobility issue that causes regular pain means I'm under a decent amount of stress and currently there is no known finish line, due to the pace of testing medication and my own GPs schedule I'm often looking at months between consultations to try and fine tune any amount of treatment. I am doing my best to seek other help, including seeking ADHD coaching to help fill some gaps but again the process is long, stressful and made longer by my own brain's physical makeup.
As such the best thing I can do for myself right now is to learn to stop trying to fight my brain, to just accept that right now if I can't force myself to do something then it's okay to stop trying, and to let myself just do whatever it will let me guilt free. This means I'm likely to disappear for a week or two, return to post a little bit before disappearing again. I will be largely only be focusing on posting what I'm not struggling to post, which may mean some characters or threads get more attention than others right now because it's the thing currently giving my brain dopamine, with the exception of anything mandatory which I will do my best to still meet. As such I am still asking that people do not contact me about threads that are waiting on me unless I ask for reminders, as it just adds more stress, I promise I am already very aware of what I owe/what is stagnating. If you are waiting on something from my characters to keep yours moving please reach out to me instead of just making assumptions about them, I am very much willing to work things out in that regard and am just asking people be patient and considerate of my circumstance. Regular tagging (replies or new threads) is totally fine and helps me to keep tabs on threads for when I have some extra dopamine. If you wish to reclaim any of my adopted characters due to my inconsistent activity please I just ask that I be given a heads up about it, but do not blame anyone for doing so.
Type: Scarcity
Name: Lolaf
Characters: All
Date leaving: Months ago
Date returning: Unknown
Why?: As stated prior, I'm just dealing with a lot of compounding issues. I do now have a positive ADHD diagnosis but it's still largely running rampant as my current medication is either not strong enough or doesn't work for me and I have exactly 0 coping mechanisms due to late diagnosis which means I am extremely at the mercy of my executive dysfunction, things like task initiation in particular are very difficult for me, I can have all the motivation in the world to do something I enjoy and yet there will be something making it impossible to translate the desire to do the thing into the action of doing the thing, this is as you can imagine, incredibly distressing and often exhausting if I try to push through the block for long periods of time. I'm also finding that my brain fog has been stronger lately. This on top of a still unknown mobility issue that causes regular pain means I'm under a decent amount of stress and currently there is no known finish line, due to the pace of testing medication and my own GPs schedule I'm often looking at months between consultations to try and fine tune any amount of treatment. I am doing my best to seek other help, including seeking ADHD coaching to help fill some gaps but again the process is long, stressful and made longer by my own brain's physical makeup.
As such the best thing I can do for myself right now is to learn to stop trying to fight my brain, to just accept that right now if I can't force myself to do something then it's okay to stop trying, and to let myself just do whatever it will let me guilt free. This means I'm likely to disappear for a week or two, return to post a little bit before disappearing again. I will be largely only be focusing on posting what I'm not struggling to post, which may mean some characters or threads get more attention than others right now because it's the thing currently giving my brain dopamine, with the exception of anything mandatory which I will do my best to still meet. As such I am still asking that people do not contact me about threads that are waiting on me unless I ask for reminders, as it just adds more stress, I promise I am already very aware of what I owe/what is stagnating. If you are waiting on something from my characters to keep yours moving please reach out to me instead of just making assumptions about them, I am very much willing to work things out in that regard and am just asking people be patient and considerate of my circumstance. Regular tagging (replies or new threads) is totally fine and helps me to keep tabs on threads for when I have some extra dopamine. If you wish to reclaim any of my adopted characters due to my inconsistent activity please I just ask that I be given a heads up about it, but do not blame anyone for doing so.
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