I Hurt Myself Today

The more days that pass in the summer heat, the more the broken, cursed boy comes to a seemingly undeniable conclusion about his existence; it is all a horrible dream. Enki cannot think of a better reason for the pain that resides in his chest with each beat of his heart or the way he keeps losing large chunks of time and waking up in strange places. Yet, even as he attempts to convince himself of the lie, the pale pink boy knows it isn’t true. The only explanation that keeps reoccurring is that he is simply cursed.

It makes sense and, as much as his mind tries to rebel against the answer, it is the only plausible explanation for his shitty life so far. The only time good things began to happen in his world is when he turned his life over to Medusa as he had been giving a home and a place to find steady meals. But the curse had followed him into Insomnia, causing the death of his mother and finally causing his break from reality. Now, Enki wanders the world as a hallow husk of a wolf, broken far beyond any hopes of repair.

Or so he believes.

Pale blue eyes blink suddenly as Enki is snapped from the desolate landscape of his mind where he had been torturing himself, yet again, with the ‘if’s’ and ‘should’s’ in his life. The world snaps into focus and he looks about in confusion, not knowing when he had left the Tar Pits or how long he had been standing here. The grass waves in a gentle breeze as he looks out over the plain, offering beauty to the ugly, cursed boy. His heart leaps into his throat as he feels that he does not deserve to be in such a wonderful place and he swiftly turns back to where the sulfur laden air awaits.

Yes, Enki still prefers to live down in the pits with the bubbling tar despite being freed from that land for no other reason than it is familiar. In a world where he often awakens in places with no memory of how he got there, there is comfort in remembering the pathways of the pits. The boy is so absorbed in his own thoughts, that he is not paying attention to his surroundings as he prepares to slink back into the hole he had crawled out from.


"Enki Klein"