Fine Again

Both Vanille and Arcturus seemed to be diligent in their work with the pack, maybe Vanille moreso. If she thought too hard on it she was failing on getting to know Arc's family while they would be the closest thing she felt like family. It was just a part of her nature to feel out of place it seemed. Stay out of the way, best way not to embarrass herself or catch any harsh feelings she supposed. Maybe they'd at least like her hard working spirit. Maybe none of it was that way, but it was the way her mind worked. Her and Arc had been together for quite some time now, but she was still stuck in this loop of some kind of acceptance. It was easy to forget all her troubles when they were together. Otherwise they were almost always on her mind.

Once her and Arc met for the night she quickly nestled into the den and between his arms, her back against his chest and gently clasping around one of his paws. Maybe he could tell how dependent she was on him just by these moments, though she had told him before how scared she was to ever lose him. A mutual feeling with what had happened in their own separate lives. She had been holding back from him and maybe he could feel that too. There was a lot of doubt on her end. But she had to learn how to just live life and let go. It wasn't easy for her. Steps in the right direction maybe, but she was at a stalemate. With what she thought was expected of her, or how Arcturus felt about her in the end. Doubt. Hopefully one day the plague would be lifted off her shoulders.

"Arc & Vanille"