Finally starting to start

Emile almost did lose his nerve when he spotted Artorias approaching him but he forced himself to remain, screwing his eyes closed for a moment and swallowing the lump rising in his throat. If he went back now he'd spend another several months having to come up with the courage to try again. He nodded in response to the blue man's greeting and did in fact find himself relaxing somewhat as Artorias moved off to his side. Not having to speak face to face certainly helped. He took a deep breath, ordering his thoughts to try and get through his words as best he could.

"Th-th-there's someonnnnnnne I met." Cliche maybe but honestly he wasn't interested in beating around the bush. "He innnnnnnvited me to vi...isit him a wwwwwwwhile ago." Despite himself he couldn't help but smile warmly as he remembered his visit to the purple man's abode. "I felt com-m-mfortable for the first time innnnnn....." he trailed off. It wasn't a slight against Artorias in any way, nearly everyone had always treated him well but he'd been stuck in a dark place for so long and Pontifex had made him feel like he wasn't putting a burden on him. Logically he knew others didn't think of him the way he assumed but there was too much history here for him, one too many wolves he'd hurt with his carelessness... He almost felt guilty about the whole thing, his father had helped to lead them down here to Auster and after years of fearing going back up north  it was the only place that had felt like it could ever feel like home again, something he hadn't felt since his puphood before he'd fucked up his closest friendship and his family had shattered.

"I'd like to gggggg... get permissionnnnn to leave The Hallows." There it was. "Nnnnnot right away, I-I-I-I'd like to prepare annnd a channnnce to say m....my goodbyes." His sister was owed that, deserved it. Through it all she'd been there and he wasn't going to simply disappear from her life... Maybe Bowen too... At the very least she deserved an apology before he went.