Is it okay to feel sad?

Gavroche II

I wanna hold you 'till the break of dawn

Auster’s spring had come and gone, and with it things had been happening in Ethne. Things that Gavroche felt detached from. More and more the yearling had been sneaking off to do this or that, but with how busy the grown ups had been it seemed they didn’t really notice his trips to visit with Trixy or explore Auster. But now that the weather had warmed and summer was here Gavroche had slowed down a little. He had spent the past couple of days closer to home, and he realized that even though he had been having a lot of fun with Trixy and enjoyed her company that he was starting to feel sad too. Things were so different from the first summer he had… when all of his siblings were alive.

There was regret too… Well, feelings mixed with regret. While Gavroche had loved the times he spent at the Hallows, and living alongside Dusk, he couldn’t help but feel bad that he hadn’t spent more time with his big brother before his passing. The illness his brother had gotten had been so rough on him, sapping his strength and making him sleep most of the time. He seemed to be in pain too, eating little, and that amount seemed to get less and less the sicker he got. It had… hurt coming back to see him deteriorating. Gavroche let out a soft sigh, curled up on the beach as he watched the waves of the shimmering shore kiss the sand.

It was… okay to grieve and feel sad, right? Loss wasn’t meant to be easy. Gavroche shifted his head on his paws. His chest felt heavy, almost as if there was a massive rock sitting right on top of it… and his heart felt low, so low that it felt like it was trying to fall through his chest down into his stomach. His stomach felt cold and achey, almost like it was in knots… Gav closed his eyes. His head hurt too, like something was squeezing it really tight… A long sigh passed his lips. He didn’t want to think about these sad thoughts and grieve.

Was it because of the change of the weather that he was reminded of his brother’s loss once more? A trigger that made him realize just how much time had gone and been wasted… His brother had seemed okayish at first, just small differences in his energy and appetite. He had bullied Ikuchi more back then too, teasing him for being dumb or eating so much, but Gav knew that if anyone else talked to their brother like that then Baecette would have kicked their tail. Tears began to prick at his eyes.

He wanted to go back to that summer, before things really got bad, back when Baecette felt well enough to joke. Back when he was alive. But there was nothing that could bring his brother back from the dead. But… would sitting here full of regret really do anything for Gavroche of his family? …and would Baecette want to see him sad? No, Gavroche told himself. His brother had loved his family… he shifted again, lifting his head off his paws.

But… What could he do to lift his mood?

Gavroche forced himself to stand. It wasn’t as if he could make the summer go away. The sunlight shimmering down on him and the water was here to stay. His gaze shifted away from the water back toward the direction of the pack territory. Was that why he had been trying to stay away from home more? Less about having fun… and more because of the distraction it served when it came to his brother? Gavroche hummed softly, tail flicking behind him.

So being away from home could help, and Trixy’s presence helped. She made him happy… she could break him out of his thoughts no matter how heavy they seemed to be. Laying still just made him feel heavy… Could a walk maybe help? He didn’t really want to do much when he felt like this, but staying still was only making him think of how sad he felt more.

First one step, then another, would begin to lead the yearling down the stretch of shoreline. The waves lapped at the sand beside him, a reminder that even when the world weighed upon you, time kept moving. Gavroche let his gaze fall to his paws. Life would continue on, even if his brother wasn’t here. This wouldn’t be the first summer to come back around, and it wouldn’t be his last. Another step, and then another…

…and it had to be okay to be sad, to grieve, because that was part of life. That wouldn’t go away either, but there were things he could do to help ease that sadness. His thoughts again shifted to Trixy and Gavroche tilted his head back, calling for his friend. If anyone could chase the sadness away right now, it was her.

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Word Count: 833

"Speech," 'Thought.'

Hear the crickets sing a riverside love song

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Is it okay to feel sad?

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Gavroche II