Let The Storm In

She was oblivious to his disappointment, despite how long it may have been welled up inside him. Maybe she knew how distant she was getting from him as she grew comfortable in this lifestyle. But she was choosing to keep it at that. She didn't need anymore than this, Arcturus did however.

As his voice rang out, not in any aggressive manner, she still felt a shudder of tension that ran through her body. She took a moment before looking towards him. She was a little stunned to say anything, forced to face some kind of reality. Before she could answer his first question she was met with another. And she was speechless. Maybe that told him all he needed to know before she said anything at all. She wanted to be with him, he was her first for everything. Her first friend, and her first real, true love. She thought so. "I...guess not." Was all she could really say. Because she couldn't push past that barrier. If Arcturus wanted more than what they had now she couldn't give that to him. She was too afraid for what would happen next. She wasn't ready. She had turned her gaze back away from him too, though no longer playing with the collection of herbs in front of her. Silence filled the air between them, she was at a loss of what to do. She was good at holding her emotions, so she wouldn't shed a tear. She wouldn't fight him. But she was a whirlwind inside her head. It would catch up with her eventually, and he probably wouldn't be here to see how much she would have wanted to make them work out. She couldn't show him how much he truly mattered to her in this very moment.

"Arc & Vanille"