Under the same moon
Triss
09-12-2024, 11:29 PM
Triss scooted towards him and when she placed her head on his paw Crux leaned forward to gently nose at her head. There it was. Crux sighed. He didn't exactly have an answer. He took a moment to manoeuvre himself to curl around her, using that space to try and think. "Triss..." Crux took a deep breath, wanting to make sure she was listening. "I love you. If you want kids then I want to try." He spoke slowly, doing his best to keep his own worry from his voice. He'd carried a fear he'd killed his mother for years now... And he couldn't deny a worry that if a child of his had the same issues he did that it would kill Triss too... Yes his mother had been older, but she'd also been bigger, hadn't had the same breathing issues Triss did. It was a risk he'd not keep from her but it was for their future consideration. Right now he was going to comfort the woman he loved, was going to make sure he was there for her.
"Can you honestly tell me if our children had their own difficulties you'd not bend heaven and earth to give them the best life you can?" He gave a small if melancholic smile. Triss was probably the most willful wolf he'd ever met, if anyone could fight nature itself it was her. "And I'd be right there with you." Crux paused again. The idea that maybe they couldn't even have children wasn't one that cut him as deep as it did Triss, not because he didn't care but because he knew that family wasn't always blood, and he'd not love his new family any less for it. That said he could understand why it might hurt her, neither of them knew if they were even capable of it. Maybe it'd be him, maybe he would be the problem. That would hurt, because it would mean being the thing that hurt her. "Cryptis Nightwing," he began trying to catch her eye, "I chose you. I moved continents for you. I left behind the only life I'd ever known because I knew the life I wanted had to have you in it. I love you. Nothing will change that. " He wasn't trying to guilt her in any way, simply emphasize what he was trying to say. "If it comes down to it I'll never stop reminding you of that. I'll be right there to remind you every day that you're not alone, you don't need to deal with anything alone. I'm big, I'm strong and I can carry whatever weight you need until you're ready to face it head on, together." As he talked Crux started to be convinced himself. He couldn't deny a fear of failure, of being a bad parent... But dammit if he didn't want to try! Crux wanted to face every challenge with Triss. "And frankly, I don't think even a god could stop you from creating a family, one way or the other. Nor would they, if they were just, Triss you are the strongest wolf I've ever met. You'll make a great mother." You will, not you would. Sometimes... Sometimes you just had to put the intention out there, had to use language that indicated more hope than you might have. Had to hope that if there was any sort of greater force out there, it would hear you.
Updated 04/30/23: Still on indefinite scarcity, please do not remind me of threads I am behind on right now.
Crux has a 6 inch long burn scar on his throat, most of his art does not reflect this.
Crux has a 6 inch long burn scar on his throat, most of his art does not reflect this.