Bloodied Snow

Pinned ears heard his mates painful reiteration of his current status, Bane sensing Loccian move up to dab at his face, an involuntarily scrunching of his muzzle at the painful compression but otherwise remained still. The healer withdrew just as Tahlia began breaking his heart in two with her complaining. A blank look was on his face as his mind fought to make good of the situation and keep his relationship with his family, only a few coming to mind. Loccian could be killed, and they they could flee while making a stop at the den for their pups. Pursuit would be a definite action and Seracia would pursue them to the ends of the earth. Bane couldn't do that, Loccian... despite her actions in this he still couldn't hold any real anger. She had been a nice packmate to be with when their paths crossed... and if he never went hunting with her he would've never met Tahlia. They could leave as a family. No, the outlands of Seracia were dangerous for wolves with the war going on. Safety in numbers, and he would not compromise his pups or Tahlia's well being as a sustenance provider for their family out on their own. He would have to learn how to hunt again with his disability and that would take time, time where his young would go hungry or something happening while was gone.

Or he could leave by himself... ya... that was doable. He could leave kills at the border, watch and guard the neutral perimeter of Seracia from the northern packs. Like the wars in the what was now the ashlands, it would just be like younger times, time where things were simpler and had a straight path in the trail. The trail was now spread about around him, and those trails led to more trails, and so on... until they ended with death. The remaining eye looked down at his paws while he though of these options even as Tahlia finished ripping him a new one, and she had every right to do so.

"I didn't have everything Tahlia... I didn't have control, no control of my age. I was compulsive, always was, and I couldn't wait for Alena and my young to make their choice whether to live here or not. I wanted one badly... after... after my first five died while I was away. They always died when I was away. With Alena in Amenti I was afraid that since I was not with them, they would die. I blamed as myself not being there, and by me being there I could watch over them and see if it made a difference if any of them lived. I am old Tahlia, you know this, I've been alive since the time of the two-legs. And with a mate and pups I finally felt complete." Bane had hardly noticed that the sky had shifted to an early snowfall, a fell wind blowing in through the trees.?"One more question because I have to leave or Maverick'll come back and take my other eye... do you still love me?" A chuff was given and he shifted his forepaws nervously. Tahlia...