It's Been Awhile... [Ifrit]

Her thoughts lingered on the past, more than they should have, she knew that. Elyas, her lover, her best friend, her soul mate, was gone. Ripped away from her and she would never again see him. He was lost to her, had been for years and perhaps thats why she had tried to fill the empty space in her heart with the love that Glaciem offered... but what could they offer her? Safety? Protection? The veil of the concept of family? They could not bring her beloved back. They could not fill that gaping wound in her heart. That was her punishment, she knew what true love felt like only to have it cruelly ripped away from her.

Tears flooded the corners of her eyes. She had not thought back to those years in a long time, she had forced herself to forget how happy she had been and how much she missed the warmth of another against her pack, her lovers steady heartbeat along her spine, keeping her safe and making her feel protected. He had been her world and now... she hung her head to hide her tears from the seemingly impenetrable brute, he did not need to see her so weak.

She had no family, she had no home, she was growing into her later years and not even a pack she could claim for her own. She was a train wreck and she knew it. She rose to her pads, shaking her head slightly and brushing to the right of him, tears now dripping along her maw. He needn't see her like this. No one need see her like this. She swallowed the lump in her throat and took a shaky breath, calling back over her shoulder.

"I hope you find it one day my friend, and once you do, never let the feeling go, when its taken from you, its the worst agony imaginable."

-exit Insomnia-