Letting Go [Joining/open]

One ivory paw dipped into the snow before lifting free and sinking back into the icy element with ease. Her pace was slow, languid. She felt so emotionally drained so devoid of emotion. It had been years since she had really taken the time to think back on her family. Her mate, her lover, her best friend, she wasn't sure why her conversation with Ifrit had suddenly brought everything tumbling back to her, but she knew suddenly that she could not be alone anymore, she could not thrive in unclaimed territories, even if the companionship she felt was only the comradery of a pack mate it was better than nothing.

She approached the border with a bit of apprehension. She had joined Glaciem before because it had been so entirely different than Arkhein. Its ideals and its workings were the exact opposite of the desert. There would be nothing here to remind her of Elyas or her home. She had foolishly thought to forget her past, that by erasing any memory of such a place it wouldn't hurt her. She had been such an idiot. She allowed the feelings to fester and grow and now they ate at her, clawed at her emotions.

She squeezed her eyes shut, the lump in her throat preventing the howl from escaping her jaws. It hit her suddenly that Elyas would never come back, she would never see her beloved again and no matter how far she ran or where she traveled too that was a fact that would never change. Tears dripped from her maw and her legs buckled beneath her as she collapsed into the snow. She curled into her own body and cried. Her bodice shook with the force of her sobs and whines and cries constantly left her throat. For minutes, hours, she laid upon the snow finally...finally letting go.