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*Imena* · 03-23-2014, 01:56 PM

Imena

She wasn't planning to leave the confines of her den at all today. Instead she laid in the back dark corner with her head on her paws and eyes staring out at the entrance. It was like she was waiting for something or more of someone. The pain of losing Cael was too much to bare, to much to comprehend. She was nothing without her Sun. Who would light up her world if he was gone? Part of her said to keep waiting, he'll be back. The other said it was over, it had been far to long. He had seen something to push away from her. To leave without a word to her. He hadn't even gone to her wedding. What did that all mean? Was she undesirable?

The loss of her love was making her push away from others. At first she did not want them to see her suffering, that she'd be ok. And then she just couldn't stand it. She couldn't stand seeing others so happy, to move on in their lives, to find love and let it blossom. Then she just felt like she couldn't let anyone in. She would only get hurt if she did. It was like living back in her birth pack. The isolation, the pain, the playing of her heart. What made matters worse was that every time she met someone either stranger or pack mate, Erani always appeared. The older woman was always pointing something out that she did wrong one way or another. She was starting to think Erani didn't trust her. So her last comment to the alpha had been muttered out in slight anger and annoyance. She felt worthless once more. Even he pack didn't ask for her, they asked for Erani or one of the other healers. It was like she didn't exsist in the pack. Maybe she didn't, not without Cael.

Her eyes would blink slowly from the starring state she had been in as a howl whispered into the cave. Ears twitched at it's meaning. Well speak of the devil, it was Erani asking for her. For a few moments she laid there before she got up with a grunt. Shaking out her fur she stepped out into the sunlight, eyes squinting. With a sigh and deep breaths she put up her wall of defense before taking off at a loop to the alpha's den. It wouldn't take too long but she was sure the slow start would delay her some. No mater, Imena could say she was in the far part of the territory. The path way to Erani's den came into view and she slowed as she made her way. The beauty of it seemed lost on her either from seeing it before or the fact that she seemed to just not feel anymore was unknown. She gave a soft bark in greeting as she neared the den and paused outside. Her sky blue eyes held nothing, no emotion, no life in them. Imena could only imagine what this would be about.

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