You Oughta Know
03-25-2014, 12:49 AM
Golden eyes would widen in horror as the small group was joined by the sola knight, Maximous, and then the high lady Platinum. The sola would hear Fugue's explanation and be so enraged that he felt the need to stand between the two ladies and the auburn man. A mixture of rage and sorrow would fill his heart, pounding within his chest and causing a seething pain to course through his body. He was being barred from his own queen, one whom he had never once wished harm upon. Yet he would admit, he had been a dangerous man. Perhaps being restricted from the ashen lady was what needed to be done. Once Platinum spoke up, Fugue's head would shake from side to side and his head would lift to the high lady's eye level. "Please, lady. His reactions are befitting. I am in no place to be near Lady Raisa." Though it pains me... Auburn head would turn again to face the ivory queen. She was speaking, seemingly to him, confirming his deepest insecurities and causing him to question his own sanity. She did not wish to hurt him? Did he not deserve her lashings? Had he not saved himself for her retribution, holding himself back from taking a dip in the mouth of the volcano that Raisa had saved him from on the day they had met? He could not accept that she would allow him to survive after the misdeeds he had done. He had sinned against her and against all that was right and proper. Those eyes, those amethyst eyes with every story and emotion hidden behind them, burned into him like scalding hot stones. She was so calm and so sympathetic. Here, he could not run from her. His dreams had caused him to fear her, and yet here she seemed so calm. So this was reality. It was a relief, and a curse. He simply could not handle the tension that it caused on his mind. "Are you still that same monster?" She would ask him, and his mind could not settle on the answer. He knew who he had been, and who he was now. It killed him to imagine that he could have ever been that sort of monster. He still knew that monster for he had seen him every night in his nightmares. His tail would curl farther beneath his body, his ears pressed firm against his skull as he opened his maw to address his victim. "That monster and I are well acquainted. I hate him. He made himself a home in my mind and before I knew it, he had overtaken me. I am ashamed to say that he and I were one for the better part of my upbringing." He would pause, and his golden orbs would drift to the ashen queen who had given him so much, then lock back onto the tribal-marked visage of the ivory queen. "In my moments of sanity I would find solace only in the planning of my own demise, to permanently end the creature that I had become. He would even encourage me, push me to do so to end my own misery and make a mark on this world as a coward, a rapist, a pillager, a scoundrel. And then I met Raisa." His voice would crack on her name, feeling too dirty and too undeserving to speak the woman's name. He had to continue. Had to make things right. "With her, I could feel normal. I could look back and see the demon that I had become. She gave me a reason to change, a purpose. I wanted to be a good man, to be a good knight and to make things right. You...your vision haunted me. Continues to haunt me. Yet I found it within myself to expel the monster from my mind and body. With that part of me gone, I felt free to become the man I wished to be. The only thing keeping me back was the thought of you, broken and defeated by that lakeshore. I knew that I would never be able to truly become an honorable man until I had seen right by you. So to say that I am still that monster would truly be a statement that only you can make, for you are the final factor in that conundrum. Though I know that it is difficult for you, you have no idea what relief it is to see you here alive, stronger than ever and able to pass the judgement that I so rightly deserve. I am forever in your debt, and if it means giving my life so that you may have the closure you need, it will truly be a lighter punishment than I deserve." He finished and blinked in signal to the two women who stood before him. It was time now for the higher powers to decide his fate. -FUGUE- |
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