May I Come Home?
04-06-2014, 01:14 PM
Of all the reactions Imena could have given him, this was not at all what he could have predicted. His gaze shoot up to hers with shock at her growl and her furious words. Of course, she had every right to be furious. Actually, she deserved to be furious. However, he had never actually thought that Imena, his gentle Imena, could lash out like this. At her command for him to stand he scrambled to his paws, his ears pinned back against his skull and his eyes wide with a mix of shock and worry. Her telling him that his den was still with her if he wanted it eased his fears a bit, but as she continued to speak it only crushed him more. He wished he could reach out to her, hold her, shower her with all the love he held in his heart for her, but he was honestly afraid that she would attack him if he did. Erani truly spoke the truth when she had told him that he had a lot of making up to do, more than he had ever imagined. He knew she probably didn't want to hear his reasons and stories now, but he needed to tell her, needed to explain himself. Now he felt ashamed to even to have thought it was a good excuse, but all the same it was all he had and he had to tell her. His eyes fell back to the ground, watching the pile of herbs she was moving back into a pile absently as he spoke in a soft, weak voice. He had lost all his confidence in his story, but all the same it needed to be said. "The night I left I had a dream that Claire had been murdered. It felt so real, like a vision. I could smell her blood and hear her cry out in pain... I was so terrified I took off without thinking, went on a frantic search for her. I didn't sleep for days and I just kept running and running till I was starving and my paws were bleeding. Time passed and I didn't even realize it had. But, I found her. Against all odds I found Claire. She was alive and well. She found a mate and had children of her own with her. I hope that dream wasn't an oman for the future... but for now she's happy. It wasn't until after I had found her that I realized how much time had passed, realized what I had done. I had lost myself, lost my mind. I stayed with her for just a day or two to regain my strength and then I came straight back here to find you." He tried to lift his gaze to meet hers and he couldn't do it. He stared at the ground between her paws instead, wondering if his explanation would do him any good in her eyes. He assumed it wouldn't, but one could hope. Even so, he added, "I would like to come home..." accepting her offer of staying in their den again. Silently he waited to see what she would say, if she would say anything. Speech Thought Companion Others |