Ashley

Audits would twitch at her response. Of course, how could he have forgotten? Was he so preoccupied with his own thoughts and feelings that he had completely neglected those of his sister? And even perhaps, the rest of his family? Eyes would shut for a moment, brows furrowing as he mentally cursed himself. Suddenly he would feel selfish...his sister needed what she could get now. The friends, the support. And where was he? While some other male was taking his place, the place where the older brother should be, he was off doing...well, nothing really. Moping, thinking about how his life felt like it had no meaning. Did it really? He lived for his family, to protect them even at the cost of his life...but did they care? They had become so distant, and it made his heart ache. It wasn't something he could help, they would go their own ways. He only hoped that in the end, they would come together and be the strong Clan that they were known for. To be the Wolves of Cross once again, the Clan that was a prime example of what a pack should be.



Eyes would reopen, his troubled gaze disappearing to be replaced by a gentle one. The one that often hid all the turmoil within his own heart. Why did he have such a weak mind? Why did his heart hurt all the time? He was hopeless, a loser, a coward. He was afraid of the changes life had to bring. The changes that could potentially tear apart his family, the family that only had each other. However badly he wanted to tell her, he did not want to worry her with his own thoughts. How could he tell her he had constant thoughts of Suicide? She had just lost her own child, his niece...and even those thoughts would cause more pain in his chest. He heaved a sigh...he was feeling weaker and weaker by the day. Perhaps...not as strong as he once thought he could be.



She would begin to tell him of the male she had spent so much time with. His gaze would focus upon her at the mention of the pair crying. So, this Alpine was involved within their family now? Perhaps. And yet, perhaps not. The family had been deceived before, there was no telling whether or not this male was true...or if he was merely displaying a facade to hurt her again. His fur would prickled slightly at the thought, but he would keep calm. "He's cheered me up, and made me smile, and showed me that there's more life worth living." Gaze would fall to the ground, had she been in a place so deep and dark that she could not see a way out? He didn't know what it was like to lose a child, for he was still one himself in a sense. "I'm...sorry for not being there more for you." Words would leave his tongue in no more then a whisper, ashamed that he had not been there for his sister...or any of his siblings, for that matter.