Difficult Enjoyment

Aoto was surprised by her response. He didn't quite believe that he wouldn't have trouble getting into a pack because if he didn't have trouble getting into one why was he a lone wolf still which caused his facial expression to become sour as his grin twisted its way down into more of a frown. He tried to smile again but it quickly went back to a downed frustrated look that danced across his maw ?If that were true I would more than likely be in a pack already...? Aoto mumbled to himself under his breath ?healers are indeed needed but as a loner I can't exactly go about my duty as a healer and help others if no one needs my services and thus my skill will go to waste much as a fighter or a hunter who's skills go to waste if they aren't able to hone them amongst others who also practice what they do? his voice was less cheerful and a bit more serious in tone one of which he didn't like using if he was in a cheerful mood.

He didn't want his skills as a healer to go to waste because if they did he would feel like he lived his life like a failure, healing was his duty in life and one that he loved. He managed to turn his upside down frown to a more joyous smile once more as he thought about it ?I guess I'm just meant to be a loner, one without a place to belong ...? He couldn't help but release a stifled chuckle and a quiet sigh. Aoto felt like there was nothing he could do about his current predicament and would soon be back on the road again and alone at that. He didn't want to be alone anymore but it seemed like he was bound to be alone for what might be the rest of his days and that slightly annoyed him a bit. His joyous smile that he regained for only moment turned into a sorrowful gaze as he no longer knew what to do if he had to revoke his skills as a healer and become a simple pup sitter for a pack he would do so... he just wanted to be somewhere instead of nowhere.

Aoto couldn't hold back letting one thought out loud ?I don't know why I carry on my family's line of healers... my mother and father would be proud to know I took on the duty of a healer but I'm not so sure about my brother... would he be proud of me even though he refused to be a healer and instead chose to be fighter? He let out another sigh as he looked down at his paws. He hated being a no one to everyone and just wanted to at least be a someone to someone else even if he were to be known as a pup sitter. Aoto went back to what the she wolf said I doubt you'll have any trouble getting into a pack and perhaps there would be some truth to what she said. He attempted to smile again ?I'm sorry for being a bit of a mess, your words just got me thinking about things... I guess this is just a one time conversation and might be the only time I ever get to talk to you if I do get scooped up by pack... hopefully one that won't mind my behavior too much? he chuckled once more as he bowed his head towards the female ?but if this were to be the only time I got to talk with you I hope the wings of the wind carry your legs across the boundless earth and the glorious sun and moon help light your path in the day and night and I thank you for just listening to my ramblings? he trailed off, he didn't want this to be the only conversation with this stranger as he enjoyed her company as he was a loner and any company was much better than none.